I really, really, really should get the 2017 performance Sarah and I did at HarmCon at CONvergence onto YouTube before the 2018 HarmCon. I SHOULD. But I might not.
Video editing is HARD, folks.
Anyway.
The closer we get to CONvergence, the more the FUCKERY going on this year makes it tough to keep my head up. People all over are struggling, are stressed, are not at their best. And there’s really not a hell of a lot I can do for most of them.
But I can be myself. I can be a fixed point, unwaveringly pushing forward. I can believe in who we are, in what we do, in why it matters. It’s not just a convention, not just a fun, meaningless exercise. It’s a community, a place of safety. Maybe the only welcome some of our members receive in their lives from year to year.
And for that, I’ll never give up.
For every one of our members who comes looking to be themselves, to be respected, to be welcome, to be safe — for them I will never yield or bend or falter.
I’ve been recently accused of having a Pollyanna-ish sort of optimism. I’m not going to go into that today, but I’ve been thinking about it. I think the sense in which it is said isn’t quite right, but there’s something which is.
The theme of Babylon 5 was, famously, “faith manages.” They weren’t talking about a religious sort of faith, though. Rather, it was the faith and trust in something worth doing. Not only within the plotlines of the show itself, but in the production to get the show made, and to keep it going, telling the stories it needed to tell. But faith isn’t just something you have, something you blithely believe and nothing comes of it.
Faith is action. Faith is planting yourself on a path and never giving way. Faith is taking two steps and knowing that the next two will come.
Right now, that sort of faith is the gravity holding me together when it gets bad. The forces in action threaten to pull us all apart, threaten to shatter us like asteroids smashing into one another. Faith is my gravity which holds me steady.
Faith that what I am doing is right, that it is necessary, is for the benefit of the people who put their own trust in me. Faith that I would rather die on this hill doing my best than crawl away never giving it my all.
If you know the CVG community, be kind. We’re all walking through hell.
But we’re not alone in it. We’ve all got each other.
And I have faith, I truly do, that nobody’s going to die on this hill at all. Together, we’ll get through this storm and the next. That’s my faith. And I’m holding it in my heart with all my strength, just in case those around me lose their own.
I know which side of the river I’m on. It’s the side of my people, my community, my team. It’s not the easiest path, but it’s the right one.
Cross the bridge and join us. Have faith.







